Sucker

Im a sucker for family/romance/comedy movies. It's just so beautiful. Wow, honestly, I can't wait to get married, to serve and honour my wife, to love my children; such an honour.
First, I need to build myself; from a boy to a man.

Just saw this one. Based on a true story :
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1389137/ - We bought a zoo. Got Matt Damon and Scarlett Johansson in it. (Y)

Meanwhile, my day was great. Was at this conference about Jesus' uniqueness and historical evidence. There were pretty strong arguments and concrete proofs on the life, death, resurrection of Jesus. At the end of the day, you can have all that and still not believe in Jesus, that he took on your death penalty. And that revelation can only come when the Holy Spirit regenerates you.
Hurts me deep down when I see my friends unresponsive to the gospel. Anyway, I can only tell; it is His job to grow that seed.

2 Corinthians 8:17 - Now if we are children, then we are heirs —heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory. 

Stir it up!

Patience

Wow, I need so much more patience.

Living with my fam after one year of staying alone IS a BIG deal.

Ugh! My small brother just makes these weird crying noises everytime. so irritating. He's cool though. Because he's my brother (H)

My dad loves the house spotless, which I'm not very used to, so anything short of that is not acceptable. Got to learn a lot.

How can I be so impatient with my fam. and be the most tolerant guy otherwise? Baffles me.


Meanwhile, I've noticed something: Since the past few days, since my fam. have come over, I've hardly had any dreams! And I love dreams because they are so cool, escaping and just fantastical and also it's God speaking to me(sometimes). Troubles me because I used to have like 5 dreams (No kidding) every night! Guess I'll just have to wait.......

I'm skipping on the church's summer camp 'coz its 60 bucks. No way I'm paying that when I haven't even started working. Wish I could go to. There's the summer camp where I'm working, starting next week, anyway. So yay!


Oh, btw, I found something really illuminating : The difference between the grace of God and the law which God gave to the Israelites!

Galatians 3:23-25
 Before the coming of this faith,^[j] we were held in custody under the law, locked up until the faith that was to come would be revealed. ²⁴ So the law was our guardian until Christ came that we might be justified by faith. ²⁵ Now that this faith has come, we are no longer under a guardian
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So the reason why we, Christians, don't have to follow all those ceremonial and civil laws of the Old Testament is because God's grace has taken over, empowered and set me free. Good news :)

Testing

Just amazing that how through testing tines, you can have Godly peace.

Honestly, really financially strenuous times at the moment. Sucks, but that's life; you go up and down. Guess that keeps you in your senses.

Anyway, im having a great time with fam.
Whoops! Clasps of thunder and streaks of lightning as I type.
Back to my fam.: they're doing fantastic!

Yes, there are times they absolutely test my patience; for the slightest of things.!!!!!

The other day, it was cloudy and me and my brothers were walking back from church.
While we were walking back, my brother flashes my sunglasses and I'm like woahhh! And he wears them and tells they are his. I get irritated/angry or whatever and tell him they aren't and argue with him. I then start to get red!
That's when I decided to walk away. Boy! What a good idea that was . I then realised how petty and foolish was the reason that I had got angry. And I'm 18! Gosh!
If it wasn't me praying and asking God to give me patience I certainly would have blasted there!
Stan was a dear though; he returned the glasses and insisted on my stubborn refusal to take it.
He can be a great brother:)

Meanwhile, the youngest guy's a really sensitive guy. Sigh. Got to choose my words so carefully. God help me.

Off to bed.
I'm tired!!
Had a fun day at STC. Yep, waited for 20 mins to talk to a rep. At TD and another 15 to get it done:/

Great days.

What a Christian must do:

I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. (Galatians 2:20 ESV)

Seemingly

Well, life does seemingly seem like a defeat; a total waste.
I've felt that a lot of times, where I just go day to day and I go what did I just do.
And when my parents struggle with their jobs and with daily activities, hope just seems lost sometimes.

However, I CHOOSE to trust God in everything. Not just a vocal, mindless expression but from the bottom of my heart. I put all my trust and hope in Jesus that through everything, He will bring me out victorious, just like He promised. And I look forward to it; being made more like Him day after day.

I CHOOSE to be faithful to God, to spend time with Him, to sacrifice my life and my desires for Him because He is worth it. Not out of a motive to receive anything in return, but because it is an honor. Even when I do not feel like it, when I'm busy, when I'm devastated, when I'm ecstatic, through it all, I choose to remain faithful.

Many times, life can be a walk-through and it is all good, but when the tough gets going, I believe, you can only get going in the right direction by choosing actions despite your circumstance.

Living King Size is not living without problems, but it is living through the ebbs and flows of life, abiding under the shadow of the Almighty, bolstered by the joy of my King.

So God help me.

Crowded

They've arrived!:D

Really happy to see my fam(half of them)!

Dad was jealous that I managed to get rid of my excess fat:P his first comment when he saw me was 'wow, you look like Chinese; become thin'.. Something along those lines. He probably said that because I wore light green shorts. That's Indian perspective on wearing light-coloured clothes lol.

My brothers are on the laptop the whole day; taking advantage of the express wi-fi, unlike India.

Feel so lazy while they're around.

Off to nap; really drowsy.
Hasta mañana.

An end of an interesting chapter

Really long since I've last written my thoughts down here. Not so much has happened though.

This weekend, I was at SMC! It was fun; just great. I had high ropes training. I was very scared initially because I have this major fear of heights - totally irrational. I would sweat every time I thought about the training.
Training went well; I was a bit peeved because the instructor didn't see fit that I became a rescuer and only though me how to belay. Well, I admit it took time for me to learn to belay, but still, I wanted to get those credentials. 

Church on Sunday. Played the keys. I loved it. Just love how music gets those creative juices in me flowing. If only my future was associated with worship and music, it would be a big dream come true.  The only reason I'm doing business school is because it is the only thing outside of music that I know, and what will give me the bucks to raise my family. On the other hand, isn't that selfish and prideful? Trying to provide for myself when God knows how to...I don't know.

Had korrean bbq sunday night. Ate LOTS. JUst stuffed myself. I think I shouldn't have; especially when I had checked my weight earlier that day at STC and found my weight to be around 5 pounds higher(well, 7-8, but you're supposed to round it up, right?They always thought that to me for math) than last month. 

Anyway, the crux of today's post: My dad and my brothers are arriving tomorrow from Hindustan! I'm excited, most certainly but it also the end of my independent life. For now, that is. I was just beginning to enjoy, appreciate and revel in it but I guess God has His plans. I wonder how this will all play out. Buying a house, paying my tuition, cooking for my fam., showing them around, which church will I have to attend? the one currently( Which I so want to) or somewhere else?

I guess I'm rested in the fact that God has EVERYTHING under control. Not a little bit hustled. Well, maybe a bit. 

Also, God's being reminding me about faithfulness, which includes getting up early in the morning according to what he's asked me, i.e., I have to sleep now! 

SO, goodnight. Philippians 1:6.

Idols..

Wow I just realized this. Had to put it up here.
I watched another rom-com today : wedding crashers.
Watched another one yesterday after watching forgetting sarah marshall. Forgot the name though...

Anyway, my point is that I have made intimacy/'love' my idol. I'm chasing after it as if it can satisfy my love. While I was resting on my bed while the movie credits rolled, this thought just hit me. I think it was the Holy Spirit convicting me.
It's just that I so desire that intimacy and want it to be fulfilled that I look to movies in order to 'fulfill' it; momentarily.

Today, I saw this testimony of a lady who grew up in a Christian home and yet she hadn't understood the gospel. She shared her experience on how, suddenly, one day it hit her (https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=I76D2bb_zYA). It was about 40 minutes long, but it was beautiful. She emphasized the point that apart from Christ, she was a depraved wretch; me too.
As I listened to that testimony, the gospel was preached to me once again and it resonated deep within me.
I could only cry, in happiness, that I was and am a sinner, a horrible one, according to God's laws, but Jesus willingly came to the Earth and died a torturous death in order to pay my penalty for sinning against God. Wow. I wasn't even crying, I was groaning/moaning, or as they say in my language, konkanni, uskun uskun radun aslo.

"Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways!" Romans 11:33 


How great is His wisdom in sending Jesus for me and giving me perfect peace.


I love you, Jesus.


Tired and gotta sleep.
Nighty night.

rom-coms

Im addicted to romo-coms! just watched forgetting sarah marshall.
sigh it was great.

tired, but energized.

I just noticed; Every time I decide a topic for a new post, the only thing that comes to my mind is tired, tiring, tiresome. Guess I need to brush up on my vocab.

Well, a few days since I last blogged.

Had a hectic but excellent weekend! Excellent for me because I hardly do anything during the week.
Well, on Saturday, we had this fundraiser and it went pretty well. The songs went good and all that.
Check this out : http://www.africaarise.ca/.
Returned home at like 1 after watching the game at Fox and the Fiddle. It was alright

Today was great. just great. Was kind of on time for the service. OK, I was a bit late.

I've just realized that I am so unpunctual! and I've tried correcting that but no matter what I try, I;m usually 15 min. late; which is so embarrassing because it happens every time; especially when everyone watches you walking in. Gotta correct that. From today.

Got a slight concussion today. Was playing this game and I crashed against this sturdy guy and fell to the ground. Didn't expect that to happen. The bigger they are, the harder they fall, I guess. The result of that accident : My shoulder's bruised, got an abrasion little below my elbow and on the side of my thigh and the worst of all - yep, my head's aching hard.

At first when I was helped up, I just saw stars from one side. Was dizzy for 20 minutes. Still hurts as i write, 12 hours since the incident. Etch's dad dressed it. Really kind of him. I absolutely love the people at church. Even Mike; He dressed up my wound, gave me some gauges and antibiotic. God Bless them.

Anyway, in the evening we had this youth/young adult event at John's place. The boys had to serve the girls(from the heart, if I may). We were supposed to reach there by 5 and the girls by 6. I reached there by 3:45, slept there and got up at 6:15- FAIL. It helped my headache though, although it came back 15 min after I woke up.
I was still dizzy when they were preparing the food and all. We made pasta, grilled cheese, waffles with ice cream and some other stuff I guess.
Then, each guy encouraged a girl. It was great. They deserved it. It was a success; I would say that.

My head still hurts and it's kind of throbbing. Hope nothing serious happens while I'm asleep...

Goodnight

Isaiah 40:31-but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

Well, another thought just popped up. I'm just having this struggle with having crushes and dating right now or waiting for the 'right time'. I've somewhat decided that I'd marry my wife after 1-2 years of dating. No more than that, I hope. THat's so tough though; in this generation at least. Sigh, If life was easy as ABC. It would be boring.

Glad that God's on my side. If not, I would be a total wreck, honestly.
Goodnight for the last time today.