I will risk it.

"I will give you this, my love, and I will not bargain or barter any longer. I will love you, as sure as He has loved me. I will discover what I can discover and though you remain a mystery, save God's own knowledge, what I disclose of you I will keep in the warmest chamber of my heart, the very chamber where God has stowed Himself in me. And I will do this to my death, and to death it may bring me.
I will love you like God, because of God, mighted by the power of God. I will stop expecting your love, demanding you love, trading for your love, gaming for your love. I will simply love. I am giving myself to you, and tomorrow I will do it again. I suppose the clock itself will wear thin its time before I am ended at this altar of dying and dying again.
God risked Himself on me. I will risk myself on you. And together, we will learn to love, and perhaps then, and only then, understand this gravity that drew Him, unto us.” - Donald Miller


Since last year, I've always wondered and debated on the fact that it is men who have to initiate relationships and pursue relentlessly. In Indian tradition, that is not always the case, although my dad didn't really follow suit : The parents usually find a good girl for you, you meet up and ta-daaa - you're married, if you like the girl. Simple, right?

However, this past year, being in Canada and attending the church young adults group and all, I have learnt that men pursue women.

And so I have grappled with the question : If God really cares about me and my heart and doesn't wan't me to fall prey to heartbreaks then why would he ask me to pursue someone and make myself vulnerable? Why wouldn't God just reveal to me in a dream what/who my wife is?
Of course, God could but that wouldn't always be the case.

I think as adopted sons of God, as we learn to live Spirit-filled lives, we ask for wisdom and God pours i out to us. Sometimes, we just have to use our discretion and wisdom. Not barring the fact that we ask for God's desire in our lives but, we our enabled to live a life pleasing to God through the Spirit of wisdom.

Most importantly, coming back to the part of risking oneself in pursuing. Jesus risked rejection when he pursued me. So many people reject his appeal; his pursuit of their hearts. He gave it all. He made himself fully vulnerable. He deserves all our worship and love. Yet, so many reject him daily for things that cannot satisfy. For false intimacies. He risked it. 

In the same way I will risk it. When I am of age and the right maturity, I will pursue. Not foolishly, of course. I will pursue a woman who loves God and has the same vision as me. In that pursuit, there is room for heart break, but, if I don't risk it, I risk regretting not taking that risk.


I got the inspiration to this Blog post from this video :

Do check it out.

Until then and even after, I will continually love my Jesus who is so worthy of all my love and all my adoration. When is He not worthy loving back?