Today was an average day. Was/am at my fam. friend's house.
Passed a lot of gas today - having too much curries, i guess :/ Gah, I'm disgusting.
Well, I just started a dream e-journal today! Spurred on by this really touching dream I had today. It's still a bit fresh on my mind.
Meanwhile, my dad and my brothers are going to be in TO tomorrow! Not overly excited, surprisingly. Of course, I am delighted to see my fam. in ages. Just want to hug them!!!!! I no longer have to say alone and dread going home after everything is done every time.
Well, it brings many constraints too.
Numero uno : I will NOT be allowed to come home late. Maybe, that would change since I've turned eighteen while I was here. Not that much of a biggie though because my Dad trusts me. He definitely would n't object if I informed him.
Numero dos : My parents are pastors, and with my mom coming over in a few months for good, too, they've pretty much decided to continue the ministry they had been given in Dubai (of course). That would most probably mean me discontinuing attending some of the services of the church I attend currently and honestly, I don't really want to do that. I guess I've just grown attached and all.
I was just asking God for direction regarding this matter the entire week. Surprisingly, I'm so burdened down by this matter. :/
Further, staying alone had its benefits. I grew spiritually just great. Yes, I did have times where I fell and could be avoided if there were people in the house, but still, the same way, the avenue to grow spiritually was more too. Thinking of it, it's stupid. What am I going to do hen I'm married and I have kids and a job(maybe)? I would have to grow even then.
Guess I'll just have to find a way and trust that God will lead me.
Today's my last day of 'freedom'. Got things lined up to do. No 'me' time :( Well, good to keep myself busy.
Tired now.
Goodnight.
Passed a lot of gas today - having too much curries, i guess :/ Gah, I'm disgusting.
Well, I just started a dream e-journal today! Spurred on by this really touching dream I had today. It's still a bit fresh on my mind.
Meanwhile, my dad and my brothers are going to be in TO tomorrow! Not overly excited, surprisingly. Of course, I am delighted to see my fam. in ages. Just want to hug them!!!!! I no longer have to say alone and dread going home after everything is done every time.
Well, it brings many constraints too.
Numero uno : I will NOT be allowed to come home late. Maybe, that would change since I've turned eighteen while I was here. Not that much of a biggie though because my Dad trusts me. He definitely would n't object if I informed him.
Numero dos : My parents are pastors, and with my mom coming over in a few months for good, too, they've pretty much decided to continue the ministry they had been given in Dubai (of course). That would most probably mean me discontinuing attending some of the services of the church I attend currently and honestly, I don't really want to do that. I guess I've just grown attached and all.
I was just asking God for direction regarding this matter the entire week. Surprisingly, I'm so burdened down by this matter. :/
Further, staying alone had its benefits. I grew spiritually just great. Yes, I did have times where I fell and could be avoided if there were people in the house, but still, the same way, the avenue to grow spiritually was more too. Thinking of it, it's stupid. What am I going to do hen I'm married and I have kids and a job(maybe)? I would have to grow even then.
Guess I'll just have to find a way and trust that God will lead me.
Today's my last day of 'freedom'. Got things lined up to do. No 'me' time :( Well, good to keep myself busy.
Tired now.
Goodnight.
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