Today was a great day!
Starting with today's service in the morning :
The word was just what I needed. Just the night before, I fell into sexual sin. It was so bad. Although I felt it just sucked me all of a sudden, I could see myself falling slowly by slowly since the afternoon. Just through these months of falling and getting back again, I've started to learn what to stay away from and when to detect and what not to do. I just hate sin. I HATE it with all my heart, except for that short time I'm pleasuring myself; I think even then. Well, after I fell, I just was helpless. Hate how it feels when you've been succumbed to your weakness. I think it all boils down to not spending time at the feet of God. I think it's 'just a season' but then I feel that's an excuse I use. I then thought it would be a good time to read the Bible.
Chanced upon Philippians 3 and it was such an encouragement :
v2 - ..put no confidence in the flesh.. I will trust my flesh's 'ability' to resist temptation no longer. I can only go so far and then fail miserably.
v10 - ..I want to know Christ-yes the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings.. I want to come to this level; where I consider all things a loss compared to the excellence of Jesus Christ. God, I so need you to intervene.
v12 -Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. I will press on. Christ Jesus took hold of life in abundance for me and i WILL press on.
v13-..Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.. I will press on, strain forward and not be hindered by what I have fallen to. I will go forward to what is ahead.
Starting with today's service in the morning :
The word was just what I needed. Just the night before, I fell into sexual sin. It was so bad. Although I felt it just sucked me all of a sudden, I could see myself falling slowly by slowly since the afternoon. Just through these months of falling and getting back again, I've started to learn what to stay away from and when to detect and what not to do. I just hate sin. I HATE it with all my heart, except for that short time I'm pleasuring myself; I think even then. Well, after I fell, I just was helpless. Hate how it feels when you've been succumbed to your weakness. I think it all boils down to not spending time at the feet of God. I think it's 'just a season' but then I feel that's an excuse I use. I then thought it would be a good time to read the Bible.
Chanced upon Philippians 3 and it was such an encouragement :
v2 - ..put no confidence in the flesh.. I will trust my flesh's 'ability' to resist temptation no longer. I can only go so far and then fail miserably.
v10 - ..I want to know Christ-yes the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings.. I want to come to this level; where I consider all things a loss compared to the excellence of Jesus Christ. God, I so need you to intervene.
v12 -Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. I will press on. Christ Jesus took hold of life in abundance for me and i WILL press on.
v13-..Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.. I will press on, strain forward and not be hindered by what I have fallen to. I will go forward to what is ahead.
That was what God spoke to me through His word yesterday night, after which, I asked God that He would speak to me through the word from the pastor and as sure as His goodness, He did :) :
Pastor Sheela spoke about how in and through the valleys of life, in pain, shortcomings and weaknesses, God can make a door of hope and can turn the situation around. Not only that, but he seeks to make that valley where you passed through, a spring of life (Isaiah 41:18) and from people who are not loved, desired, or fruitful, to people who are (Hosea 2:15,21-23). Wow, that was what I needed; hope I follow-up throughout the week what was preached.
In the evening, I went with a few friends to this dam not far from here. Played some soccer there and then all the way south to Brimley Beach. I, on the insistence of my friends, climbed this hill (well, a sea bluff). It was the first time I scaled anything. Yes, ANYTHING. Oh my God, that was the last time I tried that. Till about 3/5th of the bluff, it wasn't really anything testing. After that, it started getting steeper and there were less rocks to get a hold on and more loose limestone. If it wasn't for Jey pushing and instructing me at every step behind, today, very much, could have been my last day. Well, I did survive, after many rests on the way to the summit and my shorts and v-neck full of dust. Here are some photos after climbing it :
All in all, it was a great day. Learnt good things, overcame my fear of heights by climbing up the hill(well, not completely yet) and had some delicious Chinese food for dinner. Check.
I will press on.
I will press on.
Peace.
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